Tomorrow (mon Oct 26) I start my fourth week on the job. I suck the brown out of shit at it. Please help me. I look up to and treat all my colleagues at work like a king and they all hate me right now because I suck. For every up I get that I don't close I feel like I rat-fucked my colleagues out of a commission - it's painful. I started hating it two weeks ago and I have stuck around this long. I have grit and am trying to succeed, but I'm fuckin' crashing RN.
Training program was shit. Sink or swim. Any and ALL orthodox or unconventional advice is appreciated. I've done lots of hard shit in my life, I can do this, just need lots of help today.
Please save the bullshit comments like "get a real job", " quit", etc.
This has to work out. Not many options in the local job market. I'm a hard AF worker, just fuckin' dense I guess.
I don't mind fucking up, being humiliated, working ten and a half hour days, having my time wasted, being treated occasionally with hostility by colleagues, or have problems with people skills, but I'm not closing and it's pissing me off because it's fucking with other peoples' bread and butter and I'm tempted to quit just because I'm just not used to being such a hinderance.
It's one thing to be useless, it's another to be a detriment.
Any unique advice? I'm not closing. My customers want to buy, they have the means to buy. It's me who sucks.