Hi all, I'm looking for realistic advice from people who've been through something similar, ideally in Spain or just in general
Background
I'm 21(M) and hold a Spanish passport. I grew up in the UK and moved to Catalonia a bit under a year ago.
My education is UK GCSEs, tried doing A levels but dropped out after the 1st year.
My Spanish is decent for understanding but weak for speaking( i can have basic conversations and day to day but thats my limit ) I have zero Catalan, and English is my only fluent language.
Work history is mostly retail, warehouse and some carpentry trainee experience
Current situation
I live with family, which to keep it short is unbearable and super draining and gets worse as time passes, apart from that also threatened and told to find my own place or i will get kicked out ( i know its not legal to get kicked out of parents put until late 20s i think in spain ) but i still want to leave as soon as possible if i could tomorrow although thats not realistic
I have no savings or income, no friends or contacts here or anywhere and no job. I've been applying for about 3-4 months with no interviews or progression, and my low Spanish and lack of Catalan are a big barrier. - also the state spain is in i dont have hope i will find anything from what ive heard and seen
Im open to any kind of job i could get apart from job that require a lot of socialising/customer service or language( since i dont know the language well) - also due to my mental health/personal issues i struggle with roles like this or a opportunity abroad or anything i can do to have a fresh or stable start, so job searching and actually finding something seems not achievable
Plan so far
I'm doing an online prep course (IOC) for the Grado Superior entrance exam. But again because of the language problem im struggling to understand and complete it
My initial plan/goal is a Grado Superior in 2D/3D animation and games or Dam or ASIR. But with the job market and what going in the world im worried im going to dedicate 3 years to it for it to end up useless and wont do me any good, the other problem actually getting accepted into a school in my position.
I considered the European Solidarity Corps, but I'm unsure if its worth it and how long i should do one for , but most importantly whats after the ESC where do i go and stay and whats next.
Additional:
I should be upfront that this isn't only about logistics: I've been struggling with my mental health for a while and feel stuck and directionless. I'm low, I don't have much of a routine, and I want to leave my current life behind and start over somewhere new, with my own space, independent and something to work towards. I don't expect a move to fix everything, but staying in the same place and habits aswell as my home and family is making things worse. I'm hoping for a stable, sustainable path that gives me structure and purpose. I'm mentioning this because it should shape the advice: i dont mind anything since i have nothing to lose but a lot to gain, having my own place or independencey feels like it cpuld help with a lot of my current mental problems but again not possible without a job or income as long as i know
So what ,where do i start and do or is it over for me
Sorry for the long rant , if i missed any context or anything i can provide thank you