And this is just the beginning, I have a long road to recovery. I’m 41, I’ve been fapping and watching porn since 11 years old (maybe the porn came later but definatly began the fapping). Anyway I’ve been trying to quit for like 6 years because it was just so ingrained. But this isn’t more of a success story yet it’s a stop when you’re young notice. The earlier in life you can give it up the better. I’m still flatlining. I’ve noticed some benefits but like I said I started at 0. So this post is more for men over 40. This ain’t a 90 and done process gents, you have to commit and get ready to play the LONG game, infinite patience will be required

4days in and still going

32 rn .

No touching , no edging , no Porn . Absolutely clean No FAP attempt .

I have ADHD . My compulsion stemmed from that dopamine deficient brain leading to addiction like symptoms . It used to be unbearable .

Controlling myself started becoming a bit easy once I started working on my issues and destressing . Then next phase was crossing 30's . Generally speaking , neurodivergent brains complete the development of their pre frontal cortex after 30s and for normal people its in their 20s. My body automatically started calming down heavily .

It was very difficult for me with the ADHD symptoms like poor memory , depression , inability to form habits quickly , impatience , restless leg syndrome , delayed sleep phase disorder , etc . But I did it somehow this time . My body was not revolting and rebelling this time as it usually did .

Don't intend to go back to sexual activities ever again . Its not good for my brain . Next target is 60 days

I think that's one of the most profound things on this journey.

When you're on a PMO addiction you don't see reality for how it really is. You see it through thick cloud. Small issues get blown out of proportion because your nervous system is fried.

I seriously feel like such a loser. I just finished coming from an escort. Im feeling disgusted with myself for even going to an escort.

I cannot understand why I keep doing this. I had so many opportunities to be in a relationship yet I reject every girl who shows interest in me. I cannot bring myself to talk to any girl.

I work out. Im In the best shape of my life. I take care of my appearance. I dont get why I keep doing this over and over.

Porn, escorts. They're ruining me financially and mentally.

instead of talking to girls and making connections with other people I isolate myself and pay for sex because its easier and since i grew up being rejected by friends, family, coworkers. Its been a nightmare.

migraine and masturbation. I am feeling migraine since last 2 days in early morning. Two days ago I masturbated.Because I felt relief that by doing Masturbation. This is not the first time this has happened. Two months ago, I also engaged in masturbation to get relief from a migraine. I believe that, for me, masturbation is useful for finding relief from migraine. I have also felt migraine in today early morning. but I have not masturbated. Is masturbation a method for obtaining relief from migraine?

Daily check in. Things are fine at work. After work, I went for a walk, and when I got home, I played Minecraft. I’m still standing!

Struggling alot today and couldn't help myself and peeked st someone. I know it's wrong and I stopped but Struggling to recover and can't seem to get my mind off it. Don't know how to handle it. Help

Abou to go to the gym to blow off some steam. The urges are so high and I'm hella bored. Just gotta make it until tomorrow 🙏

One month in boys

Finishing up my 7th day and I didn’t have urges or any movement down there all day other than strong MW these past few days.

It’s kinda weird but I’ve been through this before, so I know I can do it again. Also it’s getting very cold where I am, so that’s visually discouraging, but we’ll get through it.

Last couple days have been so hard somehow made it thru again

I’m only on day 3. The urge comes and I masturbate to completion.

At least I’m not watching it anymore.

But this can lead me back to watching it again right?

Could use some help the urge have been so bad today I don't wanna relapse and start edging

Yesterday and today I gave in to temptation a little. I just looked, I didn't do anything more than watch, and it wasn't porn, just pictures of scantily clad women in swimsuits or something like that. I don't consider it a relapse, but I would have preferred not to. I only got erections, but I didn't do anything. Despite everything, I'm very proud of myself because I had the strength to turn off my phone and continue with my routine. I'm very close to day 30 and I don't plan to give up. I've come too far to throw in the towel. The bad thing about this is that I feel weaker now compared to last week. Tomorrow I'll meditate for 40 minutes and listen to an audio I recorded for myself about how to break the psychological bond with PMO. Stay strong, don't listen to your head, and when you feel like you can't, immediately force yourself to believe that you can. Destroy your old beliefs and nurture new ones every day, proving that you're no longer the person you used to be.

Hey guys, today was rough at work, feeling shitty about some things in my personal life like my relationships and money and all I wanna do right now is jack off. Someone please help lol

Hello all, I hope this finds you well. I am writing because I have no one else to talk about this issue. I am 22F and my 22M boyfriend have been together for exactly a year this month. Its been a pretty good relationship so far. This might be my insecurity, and maybe I am overreacting but i am genuinely disgusted-dissapointed in my bf. When we first got together i asked him if there was anything  should know about. He mentioned that he has dealt with porn. I must of mistook the context and thought he grown out of it. So the first half of the year was great, we moved in at 5 months together and are still living together. It was until about 2-3 months ago something changed. He was gone for 4 days a week for k-9 training, as he is a police officer. He was alone most of the time he wasn’t in class he was alone. This lead to more of this porn use i didn’t really know about. He would come home for the weekend and of course I was excited to see him because i was alone in our house for half the week. Of course i wanted to be intimate and we would consent and usually go at it. But there way nothing. I thought maybe he was just tired or stressed, then it carried on and i connected some dots. He was getting pleasure and intimacy other ways. I called him calmly and asked him if he was still watching porn and he could be honest because i already kind of knew the answer. He said he was. My heart immediately sunk. I havent had much luck with relationships and this one is one of the best i’ve been in. my self image has gone, as i have gained 20 pounds, its hard to look at myself in the mirror. Even going out in public i compare myself to other women and i understand this is my own insecurity, but his actions led to it going further. We fought for a while, because in my mind, if he really loved me he would’nt need to bust to other women. If he loved  me he wouldn’t make me feel this way, and these thoughts still linger with me. I am in therapy for my own issues and recently he has gone to therapy for the porn use, but to the therapist its a natural thing and i suppose it maybe is. But it hurts me, if we are ever intimate, i think he is picturing other women istead of me. I feel insecure of my body and i genuinely feel  bad during sex because i feel i am not enough, I took this to another platform, tik tok and have seen other wifes/girlfriends with the same experience and i commented on how relatable their post was and i was told by other men it was a skill issue, and it was my fault. So that makes me feel bad too. I am not mad at my bf, I genuinely feel kind of disgusted, and he is honest to me, recently, he has been locking himself in the bathroom when i am asleep in the morning because he wants to get that “release” or masturbate. I asked what he watches and deep questions like that. Im not sure if he was honest but he said only listens to the audio and doesn’t watch. Idk, i am sorry for bringing this here if this is my issue. ?

Been masturbating since 14, it's been 7 years I'm trying to quit.

A few months back i got intimate with the love of my life for the first time, that was when i discovered I'm suffering from PIED. I can get hard only for semi nude girls and when it came to penetration i got soft.

I was shattered but gathered courage to cure it by following no PMO for 90 days. But i always relapsed. That's it i cannot disappoint my love anymore. On 27 october which is just a few hours away I'm turning 22 and going to start reporting here every night sharing my progress and complications i will face in this journey.

It's enough, I'm done starting a streak again and again and failing within a few days. The longest streak was of 29 days.

But right now I'm going to report here every night as a part of accountability. I ain't giving up neither should u.

Keep fighting brothers.

Some days are just messed up. Go to sleep and try again tomorrow.

I was relapsing on Day 1-2 constantly, NNN is in 6 days now, gotta prepare for the big challenge

Looking forward to another successful day