Hey!

So, i've been wondering if i was "plural" or not, and as it turns out i am not. But for some reason, i can't for the life of me figure out why i WANTED to be plural.

Was it for the companionship? Friendship?

Whatever the case was, i am now going to try Tulpamancy. So, i would like some help/advice on how to "create" (or whatever the term is for that) a Tulpa, but i cannot concentrate enough to even start the process of forcing, due to reasons such as my family calling me, or just loud noises in general.

Thank you in advance!

If i need to elaborate more on certain things, please let me know as soon as possible!

when you made it too wasn't it just a bunch of different parts yourself that were at odds with each other for me it's been a constant war it's like I'm a guy with fallen Angels or some s*** but sort of like that the mix between mad TV and mad magazine or something like that. it should be funny but it's debilitating.

Long story short, are they compatible in a safe way? I'm still interested in tulpamancy, but just discovered I'm autistic at 40 (so not severe). Personally I don't see why not if the condition isn't debilitating, but it's always a good idea to check in anyway

Uhh long story short, i had no way to cope with my SH, and my good friend suggested i trying giving myself "a voice of reason" to yk, eat food and stay safe

I started getting my impulsive thoughts, was gonna get into a worse mood, but then i tried- rather than like, creating one intentionally i built a base in my mind and she like exploded to life onto it

Very caring, albeit annoying she is

At the time i remember thankful for her to have "taken over" (i think is what happened, even after immediately having created her) but annoyed at her tone and how she like babied me

And so, i accidentally set up another shell- a second one took it just as the first

The two are "developed" enough that communication back and forth is very very smooth, i keep coming back to the word "natural"

They dont yet have forms, voices, but i believe they're on the cusp of sentience??

I apologize for how little i know and how questionable this all sounds, i just wanna figure this out :3

What i have written is what i can best describe todays events with, and uhh yeah :,3

Thanks!

I would love to make a tulpa, but i also find it hard to conceptualise 2 distinct entities in mt body cuz I feel we'd automatically blend into one again, as I wouldn't know where the boundary between me and them is, cuz I have a very weak sense of self (i feel like I myself am fake).

Plus i already have a habit of speaking to myself and also speaking to my intrusive thoughts as if it was a separate thing/voice. So, would that create the risk of me interpretting the intrusive thoughts as the tulpa's words or viseversa before the tulpa can fully develop?

Should I try making a character description for them or something like that? I was initially hesitant to do that cuz it feels weird to impose a form onto something you are treating as a separate person, but people keep telling me its fine cuz the tulpa can just pick a different form later..

What are yall's thoughts?

The text was written using a translator

So, I’m just your average nerd from Russia. I don’t have any friends, let alone a girlfriend. It’s incredibly difficult for me to live without any kind of emotional connection to others. I’ve spent far more time with computers than I have with people.

About a year ago, I tried to create a tulpa, but I lacked the mental strength—I simply didn’t know what to talk about with her. At first, it seemed like things were going well; I even felt a response from her. But eventually, I just ran out of things to discuss, and that was the end of it. Could you give me some advice on how to come up with topics for conversation and how to motivate myself to spend time with a tulpa?

I've started creating a tulpa about 2 months ago, but I can only talk to her if I visualize her form which I find quite hard, If I want to keep my eyes open too.

When I say I can only talk to her when imagining her form, I mean that its hard for me to just focus on her personality without her form, and I only feel her presence when I imagine her form, vocalization is also a bit rocky I can only get answers if I really focus on her and even then Im uncertain. What can I do to make talking to her easier? Also if there are any tips on how to make receiving answer less exhausting that would be helpful too.

Like.. can they front? Talk out of your physical mouth? Draw? Buy things? Idk.. tell me!

Today while I was showering, another headmate just appeared randomly, said they had places to be and tried to leave but ig they couldn’t? Me and my headmates were joking about it until they said “I’m still here you know” and started cussing us out for that… they calmed down once I explained things to them and said their name was E… they wanted to stay but I genuinely cannot handle more headmates at the moment, but seemingly they can’t leave or anything. Before they appeared, I was having a conversation with the system about how I might be accidentally parroting for them and how we might be blending.

(Because sometimes when they’re talking, I accidentally complete their sentence for them as they speak and they say what I said. When that happens, I get confused and it’s hard to distinguish whether I said that or if they said that. Sometimes when I do that, the body reacts to it and makes a sudden movement that corresponds to what they were saying. I’m not sure if they’re taking possession of the body because we aren’t even CAPABLE of full body possession yet, we’ve tried. But yet, that still happens even when I DONT accidentally complete their sentences.

Honestly, I really want to sleep this off because of this ‘accidental parroting (?) that has been happening a lot this past hour. Literally a few hours ago me and my system were talking about it would be nice to make another tulpa soon, but we can’t right now since it would add a lot of pressure to us. This happened to my walk in to, they appeared randomly after me and my headmate were talking about making another tulpa soon. To make things clear, my system is completely tulpagenic with one walk-in. Advice would be lovely because I DONT know what’s going on and it’s stressing me out a lil. Sorry if what I’m saying doesn’t make sense..