Hi everyone. I’m currently in my 5th year and I’m honestly writing this because I don’t know where else to turn or who to talk to, because I feel chained and controlled without the liberty of my own life.
From day one, I never really wanted to pursue this course. I was forced into it and had to set aside what I actually wanted to do with my life. For the past five years, it has felt like constant survival, dealing with heavy workloads, sleepless nights, and the reality that I genuinely cannot see myself in this career.
Now, everything is crashing down at once. Because of academic calendar adjustments and severe time constraints, my thesis isn’t going to make it this year. I’m delayed. I’m so torn right now.
Part of me just wanted to brute-force my way through this final stretch, push my thesis through next year, and finally put an end to this 5-year nightmare just to get the degree and move on. But another part of me is completely exhausted and wondering if I should just cut my losses and shift to something I actually care about, even if it means starting over.
To make matters worse, my family is pressuring me to take the board exam. Just thinking about it for a field that has brought me so much misery makes me want to break down. The mental toll over these past five years has already been way too much.
I feel stuck, exhausted, and terrified of making the wrong choice. I’d really appreciate any advice, personal experiences, or even just a bit of clarity right now. Thank you so much.