So like... Yall werent lying about the soreness from it, they dont hurt on their own but its like an old bruise, whenever something contacts it theres a bit of pain and soreness.

I have a story

So, it was sparring day with my martial arts buddies, we do armed martial arts sparring, its fun! today was a special sparring day though, we had no specific weapons or sparring types, wanna fight with a longsword against a person with a spear? if its safe trainers then go ahead, wanna do Dagger against a person with a foam Montante for whatever godforsaken reason? Everyone is gonna watch (he actually won a single round, it was impressive)

Eitherway, I LOVE meteor hammer and rope dart, great weapons and ive got a reputation for how I spar with them, At this point I hadnt noticed anything, I was ready! I had been training different techniques and feints and casts and wraps and was ready to defend my status as "The Funny business" once more, I like to be tricky and unpredictable and insane with how I spar,

Here I am, Facing my friend with a longsword who I know the fighting style of, He sticks with Fundamentals and good technique, footing, and bind work to ensure good performance, no funny business or risky feints. And he is fighting me; The aforementioned "Funny business"

We stand face to Face, our judge counts down, we start. I start with a feint that I intend to recover with a wrap around my torso into a shot, and the rope of my weapon brushes against my chest and I feel a most peculiar pain, it catches me off guard. Why on earth would my chest hurt?? I'm distracted, I missed my recovery to keep momentum and am open. I take a foam longsword jab straight to the left tit. Usually not to painful; its a sparring sword thats soft and flexy! I keel over in pain because WOW the tits are sensitive. Judge calls hit! my friend looks concerned as to why I look so hurt wondering if he thrust too hard, im clutching my chesticles and learning in that moment that id rather take a prime tyson to the nuts rather than get punched in the tiddies

Anyway, thats how I learned my boobs are finally growing, how did yall learn?

To give Additional Info, I (15MtF) still live with my Parents, who were the EXACT People who tried to change my Gender Identity. The Difference now is that Child Protection Authorities and the Juvenile Court have stepped in to Ban my Parents from restricting my Gender Expression, my Connections with other Queer/Affirming Friends or my Access to Gender-Affirming Care.

Do you guys have any ideas why Reddit is become more transphobic? Like seriously I am notice a lot more terf activity then there used to be. Even in woman’s spaces that promote trans woman there is still transphobic that goes on. And it’s always these woman trying to scare off trans people. And why are we always getting a downvoted for no down reason just for simply saying we’re trans when we comment. Like for example today I saw a post and commented yeah if I get srs I will need to see a gynecologist too. And I got downvoted for it and I said trans woman get period like system and a woman commented what as if I was crazy. And another woman said I work in women’s health and got offended by that for some reason. Like seriously I was telling scientific facts and yet they look at us like we are crazy. As there’s been this push by the right media that trans woman can’t get periods.

I went from wandering out at 12 AM with zero questions asked to having an 8 PM curfew enforced by my female friend who my wife Allowed me to go.. Tonight a male friend asked me to ride along to another area to pick up a car, and I literally looked at my female friend to see if she'd allow it, only for her to shut it down on the spot, No! It's already 8! We're leaving in 10 minutes! Every single guy in the group lost their minds, roasting and taunting me as I stood there trapped like a strictly raised daughter while my male friend chimed in, "Guess I'll have to find someone else to date tonight, Cinderella's gotta be in bed" I had no option but to accept my fate and go straight home, completely realizing the truth 🤭

I really thought I was transgender. Back in high school, I really got into femboy culture, I watched memes about it, I got obsessed with femininity. Later in, I really started wondering if I am trans, like it was in my mind all day. It really came as a late night thought, and I was confused. I questioned multiple times a day if I am transgender or if I am non-binary. It took a huge chunk out of my time. I was really dysphoric about it, and I was confused for 2 years. 2 years. But I didnt want to transition because I knew there was something wrong, so I was in a deadlock. At the end, I am really just a femboy. Thank you all tho for helping me discovering myself

Idk if it's just me but today reddit was weird, detransition was the main recommendation, a bunch of cis (and terfs) publications just appeared in my feed, and even a recommendation attacking the whole trans community

Alexandra here! I enjoyed being in Scouts, but, I had always wished for a gender inclusive orginization, or that I could have been a Girl Scout if I had the courage to tell other people who I really was many years ago. I enjoyed camping, traveling, meetings, activities, and socializing, though I wish I could have either been a Girl Scout, or that we could have had an all gender or gender inculsuive way to do Scouts. I am proud of my accomplishments for sure, but, I wish the BSA had opened their all gender program and merged earlier than 2019, and I actually aged out 8 days AFTER the merge and name changed to 'Scouting America.' Hopefully there are some other fellow Eagle Scouts here as well!

Was taking pictures this morning, as one who is on this journey does, and i am wearing a V-neck t shirt this morning. I was laying down and kind of had my shoulders scrunched forward. I look at my chest in the camera, and there's the normal line that is directly in between my small growing boobs.

I take a couple pictures, and i notice a lock of my hair kind of falling down and resting on my chest. It's sort of dark on my room, I take a couple more pics, and i go to move the "lock of hair", which in my mind was obviously my hair because it's very long and I'm used to it being in the way.

To my absolute fucking pleasant surprise, that "Lock of hair" that I squinted to see in the camera as I lay there, was actually a boob crease that formed from the pose I was in while laying down.

Holy. Fuck. Every single time I get euphoric it's just as amazing as the last time

Have any of yall ever wanted to be a gunslinger in the Wild West, roaming the frontier and collecting bounties and causing trouble? I’ve just finished rdr2 and I’m obsessed with the Wild West!

Be me

Autistic, shy, and semi-passing

Day off, day 2 hair, no makeup on

Hannah (my cis wife) and decide to go to the store

We have to run into the Ulta beauty to get her face wash

As you do in an ulta, we start wandering around looking at all the cool shit. We have a pretty good time.

We pick up some fun stuff. I go to checkout.

Everything's going well. My voice is clocky so i try my best to not talk.

Cis woman is checking me out. She says "do you have an account with us"

I do. So i type in my phone number. Heres where I fucked up.

She looks at her computer screen. A smirk 😏 peels on her face.

As loud as she can reasonably be she says "Which account is it DeadName@gmail or Jessica\\\*\\\*\\\*\\\*@gmail?!"

😞 "jessica\*\*\\\*\*\*\\\*\\\*\\\*@gmail"

She goes "hmm. Okay 😏"

I stand there in shame as she finishes ringing me up

Hannah pipes up "um excuse me is there anyway we can get deadname removed?"

She goes "i cant do that on my end. Youd need to call corporate "

We pay

We leave. Go to harbor freight next door to get a brad nailer and some wire strippers.

We get back to the car

I say to hannah "thanks for sticking up for me"

She says "i didnt like that bitches tone"

I say "its okay. I expect that from cis people"

She says "thats no excuse. Should i call her manager?"

And i say "no thats too far"

Bought fem clothes today to start wearing out. I’ve teased the idea and I feel very comfortable but they’re fighting me on everything I do/wear. They’re saying it’s not comfortable and it’s not a good look for me. I’ve been wearing my makeup for like 6 months but the moment I wanna put the clothes on around them and outside it’s like they’re cold and horrible to me

The worst part is they were a lesbian before me and are non binary but they seem to have an issue with me wanting to continue my journey to transition. When I ask them about it they just say idk it’s just weird and “I’m not comfortable” kinda feel defeated I bought such cute stuff today too:( sad sad

Did anyone else have a cis het guy friend you would say dumb flirty shit like "hey babe wanna cuddle?" "Damn you looking like a snack" "wanna go in the back and make out?" Etc etc. NO ROMANTIC FEELINGS AT ALL Just a very dumb joke to see how absurd it could get.

And at what point in your transition did you realize that it was getting awkward? Lol

Like for me, me and one of my friend's boyfriends would do that shit all the time when I was still pretending to be a boy. But in the past month or so it's started to look less like we're two dudes being dumb and more like we're a het couple aggressively flirting. Which, like, I appreciate my homeboy treating me like I'm the same person but with different pronouns, but bro we might have to rethink this lmao

It’s only my wife that knows about me, I have no intention to transition and am comfortable living life in private.
However; I had a day stay operation at a medical centre today and they asked the question on the admission form for gender and the other term that seems to be flagged within this subreddit.
I had the opportunity to tick both boxes in the way I have always wanted.
So I ticked F and M respectively.
That was twelve hours ago and the knowledge that someone somewhere will have seen that still has me buzzing. I have doubled the number of people that know.
Something I’ve repressed and denied myself for thirty five years is now out there.

Hey yall!

I just started feminizing HRT (2 mg estrodiol and 50 mg Spirinolactone twice daily pills) 10 days ago and I don’t feel very different at all. All I’ve noticed is drop in sex drive (thank goodness), a slight heaviness in my head, and a general feeling being more gentle (if that makes any sense).

I know I just started, but I was partially thinking the hormones would change a lot more of my mentle state. Like I would say “wow thank goodness I feel so much better”. I just feel pretty much the same. Is this normal??

Edit: I lied I’m on 50 mg of spiro not progesterone my b

I debated on making this post or not because I feel really bad about it in a lot of ways. But I feel like I just need to vent and put it out there. I’ve been transitioning for almost a decade and I’m in my mid 20s. I live in the Midwest in a blue state and a major metropolitan area. My state/city have especially become a hub for a lot of trans people cause of good healthcare, affordability, and politics. I’ve actually grown up and lived in this state my entire life but only recently moved to the city from another town as of 7-ish years ago

The first thing I hear a lot of people say about my city is that the community here is amazing. And it is very large, that’s to be sure. There’s a decent amount of events and you can recognize people but still have space from those you don’t like usually. And I totally get why some people absolutely love it here. But to be honest I‘ve had horrible experiences with my local trans community and I think it’s honestly what drove me to be stealth even moreso than bad experiences with cis people. I just had to list the main reasons why and complain. I feel like I’m going crazy but I have to talk about it.

I would like to preface this by saying the vast majority of these experiences are with white trans women and I actually hold no ill will towards them as a group. I support them as much as anyone. I just want them to treat me and other black trans people better. Same with early HRT girls

I go to bars and clubs with my friends pretty often, and like every other single woman I like to be flirted with. But way too many times other trans women come right out the gate saying extremely sexual stuff to me. Before I passed I got asked about my genitals a lot (and I’m black so a lot of the white girls just assumed I had a “BBC”), or had girls ask if my boobs were fake, or had women compliment how “sturdy” my hair looked and how it’s probably fun to pull in bed.

I’ve had several white trans women come up to me and imply that I should top them or imply that I’m naturally bigger and more dominant than they are because I’m Black (I’m really short about 5’3.5” and I’d get this a lot from taller girls I think as a coping mechanism on their part. Which makes me feel sad for them and also bad about my own height). I’ve even had multiple trans women (usually white early transitioners who are older) try and touch my hair or touch me without my consent. I’ve been sexually assaulted or almost coerced several times.

I had a very early HRT trans woman approach me and some friends and very early on in our convo she started talking about yuri and the lesbian porn she watches. It made both my two friend and me uncomfortable very quickly.

Before I passed I had multiple instances of trans women coming up to me, clocking me, outing me to nearby people (“you’re trans too, right?”), and then asking me details about how long I’ve been on HRT and when I plan to reach certain milestones like different surgeries. I don’t think I should have to explain why this is wrong. I know there’s a lot of debate about clocking but maybe you should try a simple conversation first instead of opening with this stuff.

When I’d get clocked usually they’d also mention about how black trans women like me have it really hard and how it must be so isolating and scary being me. I’ve gotten a lot of “you’re so strong” and “I could never be as strong as you” type language which just feels patronizing.

I’ve had several girls come up to me and state that they’re jealous of my features. That my dark skin hides acne so well or my figure or my hair or my height (especially my height—I’m not even kidding when I say I actually feel bad about myself cause it’s the first thing other trans women mention). It’s actually interfering with me feeling good about myself and I basically only hang out with like two trans women.

Not to mention I cut off my ex best friend who was a white trans woman who outed me at our shared workplace with a sex joke about my genitals in front of several coworkers. I had to change teams completely just so nobody knew I was trans. I’m also one of 5 entire black people working for the company, and the only black woman in the entire company.

And of course there’s loads of trauma dumping. Don’t get me wrong, I get it. My pre-transition (and honestly post-transition mostly) life has sucked major ass. But opening a conversation with me by telling me the most traumatic, violent, and explicit experiences you have kinda makes me feel like a therapist and puts me in an awkward and sad position. I don’t wanna cut someone off but you just met me and integrating new people into your support system takes time, intentionality, and consent. What am I supposed to say in response?

The worst part is whenever I mention these issues I get flooded with people I’ve met irl and online defending it saying that I’m being unfair because a lot of these girls are either pre-transition or early stages of HRT and haven’t been socialized differently yet. I’ve gotten told that me transitioning as a teenager gives me a great social advantage and privilege over them (which I agree with! It just feels weird to mention it). I’ve been told that it’s a bad look for me as a passing woman to feel grossed out by their comments or be cold to/reject them “like they were men.” I’ve been told that trans people are just socially weird and that having trans friends means having a higher tolerance for social transgressions.

Except I have multiple trans friends in my social circle. Quite a few actually. They’re just later in transition and mostly mid 20s too. I’ve vetted them heavily and they support me being stealth and never out me.

I’ve completely disconnected from the wider community here. I feel like it’s made me mean and bitter. Now whenever I’m approached I just automatically reject people I don’t know too well. If anyone starts getting too familiar or claims they’ve seen me at clubs or bars (or falsely claims they saw me at a trans themed night—they didn’t they’re just mixing me up with another black trans girl who’s my same height but several shades lighter) I just tell them they’re wrong and not to talk to me. I never give out advice regarding HRT anymore, never discuss my transition with anyone who I’m not close with or dating, never even passively socialize with most openly trans people I meet, and only ever respond to compliments or kindness with a quick and curt “thanks.”

I feel like shit. I feel like I’ve become some self-fulfilling prophecy of the stuck up girl that passes who shuns everyone different from her for protection. I don’t think I ever want to, or can healthily be, involved in the community here. But I feel like I’ve become really mean and judgmental towards them. It’s extended to me thinking the same type of nasty shit about my local community that conservatives online say. I can’t hang out with early transition people cause most of them here just talk about fleeing red states and how great my state is and how much they love being trans and transitioning and it turns into a multi-hour therapy session which I just feel like rolling my eyes at hearing their life story.

I’m in therapy for this and other things but I just feel horrible. I don’t know who else can relate to this but has anyone found a good middle ground or has any advice to give?

I’ve been socially transitioned at school and work for several months now, and I’m barely a guy in public at all anymore. This means I called my preferred name consistently. But when people call it, I know it’s my name, but I don’t get some sort of euphoria each time. It’s the name I picked for myself, but I’m worried I made the wrong choice. I’m scared it doesn’t fully fit me. Maybe it’s just that I’ve been using it for so long, that it just feels normal, idk. I really don’t want to have to change my name now, I’ve already done a lot to socially transition at school and changed schools specifically for it, and changing my name halfway through would just make more problems.

How do you ladies feel about your names, how does it feel when you’re referred to that way in public?

hi all, masculinity literally eats me alive and i can’t stand it. because of that, i’ve found a few small ways to express femininity without getting outed or being called gay (a straights man’s social suicide, for some reason.) these include dancing in traditionally feminine ways, listening to music more likely to be listened to by women, sometimes putting on the one feminine article of clothing i have, doing relatively longer skincare routines, and probably a few more in forgetting to mention. i’d like to ask: what are some similarly small ways to express femininity while being able to keep the appearance of a cis man?

again, all recommendations are appreciated. i love all you.

I'm genuinely sick of this,people will proudly give their opinions on trans people whether it be kids getting hrt or women's sport blah blah,but the moment you actually ask these same people a thing about the trans people suddenly they are speechless.

They don't know about hrt.

They don't know what an egg is.

They don't know what boy modding is.

They don't know what dysphoria or euphoria is.

But they will still insist on giving you their opinion?

They will tell you that "somethings will need to accept about yourself with your body this isn't healthy" without realizing that's like telling a person with common panic attacks to calm down.

Seriously?I'm pretty sure you'd be made fun of for giving an opinion on something you clearly aren't knowledgeable about (in pop culture/media,politics,studies ect) but with us you can say the dumbest shit and get away with it.

I fucking hate it.

It was so much easier navigating everyday life before my egg crack and social transition. I would never want to go back or detransition but FUCK ITS HARD lately. Why couldn’t I be born the right way, as a woman from the get go? Why is my way to womanhood so difficult?

I think my dysphoria is at an all time high, I’m exhausted every day and the feeling of having to stay strong everyday, go to work and act like everything’s fine is slowly breaking me.
I’m socially out everywhere, legal name and gender changed and live my everyday life as a woman, just as a non passing, mostly androgynous woman who can’t seem to loose the fucking clocky beard shadow even tho laser hair removal is progressing.

I’m hyper vigilant every time I’m out in public if my shadow is too clocky, that my voice still sucks and if people can see something in my jeans. I just want a day where it’s quiet in my mind. Fuck it’s kinda how loud it was in my mind before starting HRT. I don’t think it can’t be my levels, I just had them checked last Friday and my T is nuked and E2 was at 253 pg/ml at trough so levels should be fine?

Idk what’s the point of this post, I guess because it’s late at night, I’ve been crying my eyes out and I’m fucking exhausted so I needed to vent?