r/postmetal • u/Ok-Recording-3303 • 6h ago
The Ocean always delivers on the deluxe vinyl editions
English translation of the letter (Claude)
Dear Yangqin Dengdeng,
How are you?
Just like you, I've had countless online sweethearts, and out of all of them, yours is the only name I remember. It's strange, since your name is the longest and my memory is terrible, but that doesn't seem to be the point.
Oh, do you remember? That day you sent me a message out of the blue, which was unusual, because you'd always been so cool and distant. You said you figured I had tons of online sweethearts, all people I'd met playing QQ Tang. I just said "that's okay," and you were shocked by my answer, and even a little touched.
But I'm the one who should be saying thank you, because for some reason, through you I got to see how big my own heart could be. Experiences like that are rare, but having them now and then is good. It showed me my own potential.
Maybe the whole thing was absurd. But to me, even though I didn't know who you really were on the other side of the screen, what you looked like, or whether that was your real name, none of it mattered. It had no boundary with real life. And that was a really important lesson in understanding myself.
Rather than calling it silly adolescent behavior, I see it as an early bright spot in figuring out who I am. Through a long childhood and adolescence full of self-doubt and family fighting, those little lights were the only thing in the dark I wanted to run toward. The light that came from you wasn't dazzling or magical, but it kept glowing faintly and never went out.
So thank you, my stranger, Yangqin Dengdeng.
Every time I read your name, my tongue traces a T-shaped formation.
And goodbye, my familiar Yangqin Dengdeng.
When I remember you, it isn't your face or your voice. It's the feeling of being curled up in a warm little ball on a cold bed.
I hope you're happy, especially if we ever get the chance to pass each other by again.
Yours, Huangmei
A few notes: "Yangqin Dengdeng" (杨琴登登) reads like an online nickname; a yangqin is a Chinese hammered dulcimer and "dengdeng" sounds like a playful plucking sound, which is probably why the writer jokes about their tongue tapping out a pattern. QQ Tang was a popular Tencent online game. "Online sweethearts" (网络情人) has the light, half-joking feel of a teen internet crush. The signature looks like 你的荒美 ("Your Huangmei"), though the first character could also read as 你是 ("You are"), and one phrase in the second-to-last paragraph was hard to make out, so I rendered it as "dazzling."