I recently finished my PhD, and honestly, I’ve been feeling increasingly confused about what my next move should be. I think I just need to get these thoughts out and see if anyone else has been through something similar.
When I started my PhD, I had a pretty clear vision of what I wanted my career to look like. I wanted to pursue postdocs for 2–3 years, gain more research experience, and then move into academia. My ultimate goal has always been to become a teacher-scholar, someone who genuinely enjoys teaching but also gets to conduct research, mentor undergraduate students, share knowledge, and learn something new alongside them. I don’t want to give up research, but I also know that teaching is something I truly love.
So, naturally, I started applying for postdocs after finishing my PhD. I’ve made it to the final stages of some interviews, and I’ve received positive feedback about how well my research skills align with the positions. Yet, despite all that, things haven’t worked out so far.
I’m not really looking for advice on what I might be doing wrong with my applications. I’ve put a lot of effort into understanding each position, tailoring my applications, and preparing for interviews. I know I still have things to learn, but I also know how much work I’ve put into getting here.
What frustrates me is the job market itself.
Some positions are advertised as suitable for recent PhD graduates, but I feel like I’m competing against people who already have several years of postdoctoral experience, sometimes even multiple postdocs. I’m just trying to get my foot in the door, and it sometimes feels like I’m competing with people who have already had several opportunities to establish themselves.
Then there are PIs who expect five or more first-author papers. I have three first-author papers from my PhD, and I know exactly how much work went into earning each one. I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished, but I can’t help wondering how a recent graduate is supposed to compete in a market where the expectations seem to keep increasing.
Another difficult part is that I haven’t had much support from my advisor when it comes to finding postdoctoral opportunities. I’ve asked about introductions to research groups and potential connections, but I haven’t really felt that kind of proactive support. So, for the most part, I’ve been navigating this entire process on my own.
And I’m tired. Not just physically, but mentally.
I can easily spend four or five hours preparing a single application, researching the institution, tailoring my research statement, writing my cover letter, and making sure everything is aligned with the position. And after all that, there’s no guarantee that anyone will even read it carefully. I’ve applied to positions across academia and industry, and as an international candidate, I’ve found the industry search particularly difficult.
Lately, I’ve started questioning the strategy I was once so sure about.
Is it worth spending the next 2–3 years doing postdocs, only to return to this same job market afterward and compete for permanent academic positions?
What if I spend those years moving between temporary positions, trying to build my CV, publishing more papers, and gaining experience, only to find myself in the same uncertain position again?
I’ve also been thinking about teaching-focused institutions and undergraduate-focused colleges.
I know I would genuinely enjoy an environment where teaching is a significant part of the job, where I can mentor students closely, and where research is still possible, even if it accounts for only 20–30% of my responsibilities. I don’t necessarily need to be at an R1 institution to feel fulfilled. I want to teach, continue doing meaningful research, and work with students who are excited to learn.
I’ve seen people with extensive postdoctoral experience eventually move into teaching-focused institutions, which makes me wonder whether I really need to follow the traditional postdoc-to-research-intensive-faculty route, especially when I already know what kind of academic environment appeals to me.
At the same time, I don’t want to make a decision out of exhaustion or give up on something I’ve worked so hard toward. I genuinely love research, and I don’t want to close that door prematurely. But I also don’t want my entire life to become an endless cycle of temporary contracts, applications, interviews, relocations, and uncertainty.
With the current economic and political climate, and the additional challenges international candidates face, it’s becoming increasingly difficult to know what a sensible long-term strategy looks like.
I’m not even sure whether I’m looking for advice or just need to hear from people who understand this feeling. I know I’m not the only person going through it, and perhaps that’s why I wanted to write this post.
For those of you who recently completed your PhDs, especially in STEM: how are you thinking about your next steps?
Did you pursue postdocs because you genuinely wanted that research experience, or because you felt it was the only way to eventually get a permanent academic position? And for those who chose teaching-focused institutions or a different path, do you ever wonder what would have happened if you had continued pursuing the traditional research-intensive route?
I’m trying to figure out whether I should keep pushing toward the original plan I had for myself or allow myself to reconsider what that plan looks like.
Right now, I think I’m just trying to find a way forward that doesn’t leave me completely burned out before my career has even really begun.
(EDIT) I would like to add one thing to my post:
I know from the comments most of them are saying to keep applying for postdocs. My question is, if I get a TT assistant professor position at a PUI with a 20% research duty versus keeping on applying for an extensive postdoc, which is the better option? And yes, I’m an international candidate in the US, so visa regulations are getting stricter day by day!
I really need to get out of my head with this dilemma. Getting a postdoc never guarantees a permanent position. I have seen acquaintances who have been doing several postdocs over the past 6 years. Like 3 already, of 2 years each, and they still couldn’t get a permanent position.
I’m just scared, and honestly, exhausted. Seriously so confused, or maybe I'm just overthinking!
Sorry for my super long post😞😞😞😞