r/Mcat • u/Ok-Kaleidoscope-1781 • 20h ago
Question 🤔🤔 I cannot commit to studying for the MCAT..help
Hey everyone! I'm an international student from India who recently graduated with a undergrad Honours from Canada (3.3 GPA). I'd had my heart set on medical school in Australia since before starting undergrad (as Canada says no international students in med lol), but somewhere along the way, I got a little derailed haha.
Throughout undergrad, I struggled with recurring burnout, motivation, and periods of mild-to-moderate depression. My final year was particularly messy, juggling coursework, extracurriculars, and my honours thesis (which I somehow managed a 90 on with a sick mid-way PI, and tbh I feel like I bullshitted my way through this and learnt nothing??). I even missed all my master's application deadlines because I was so fixated on everything else, yet couldn't get myself to study for the MCAT. Shortly after graduating, I was diagnosed with ADHD, which explained quite a lot.
I sat the MCAT after graduating and did terribly. I'd studied fewer than 50–60 hours over two months, if that, with only one FL completed (on which I scored higher 7 points than my actual exam).
It's been almost four months since I returned to India. I've been slowly improving my routine, although there have been several arguments with my parents about my future. My parents are still loving and supportive as long as I'm making progress and aim to start something next year which I desperately want to (a job/masters etc.). So, I guess this is an unexpected gap yr which isn't expected in asian families tbh...
I'm now considering funded, thesis-based master's programmes for 2027 as an alternative and go into bioinformatics or something idk/idc a lot, but I cannot seem to let go of the MCAT. At the same time, I just cannot commit to studying for it. Part of my main hesitation is the lengthy pathway to specialist training in Australia, especially when I'm not sure I'd want to settle there permanently. I go back and forth almost every day on this.
If I retake the MCAT, I'm considering testing sometime between late January and April 2027, giving myself a longer preparation period.
Has anyone else struggled with wanting to pursue medicine but being unable to commit to the exam itself? How did you finally get yourself to sit down and study consistently?
Tbh, at this point, I just want to give the MCAT my absolute best shot without ruining myself, apply to medical schools again, and see where life takes me while I start my masters or a job as soon as possible. I don't even feel the need to have my entire career figured out right now. I just want to know I've genuinely tried.
Am I being unrealistic? I'd really appreciate any advice to get some clarity or perspective! I JUST CANNOT SEEM TO GET MY HEAD STRAIGHT AND THINK THINGS THROUGH.