I am NOT bringing this habit into next year. I’m not bringing it into my thirties. And I’m DEFINITELY not bringing it into my kid’s life.
This year has been a year of trial and error, but also of progress. I don’t want porn in my life, but have had a hard time changing the habit. But ultimately, my win:lose ratio has been improving. That’s not enough though. I have been trying, but it if I am being honest, I could have been trying harder. I know I am stronger than this habit and I dont need to have it in my life.
Hearing this news that I might get to be a dad really just shook me in the best way. My mind is racing, thinking about the future, and also all the things I need to do (and GET to do) to support my wife, plan for the kid, get our finances and house in order, etc. it’s all very exciting! I don’t want to think about anything else. I CANT think about anything else.
And there is no place for porn in this new life. Zero.
I refuse to be anything but the best dad. And I promised my wife on the day we got married that I would try to be the best version of myself every single day. Trying and doing are not the same thing though. I have been trying, but not always doing.
Now is the time for doing.