I apologize in advance if my thoughts seem a bit scattered. Currently, I am a 14-year-old student, and my parents are divorced. My relationship with my mother is complicated, and we argue a lot over minor things because I view myself as an adult, and sometimes she sees me that way too. However, she yells at me for minor and often groundless reasons, which causes frequent conflicts between us. Financially, she is doing well for Russia, as she owns a decent apartment and a car.
My father, on the other hand, is struggling with debts. He has child support obligations and accumulated debts because of them. Due to various circumstances, he cannot get a regular job right now. He is fighting hard to fix this, but as a father, he is perfect to me. He does not have the means to live with me, but we see each other almost every day. Despite his age, he is in great physical shape and used to be a top student in the past. Now he decided to pursue a university degree through distance learning, and he is also working on various side projects since he has a lot of connections. He is a strong, masculine man, and he raised me the same way.
Honestly, I used to be very shy and always avoided conflicts, and I was even bullied back in primary school. But now, I am 183 cm tall, weigh between 80 and 90 kg, and I am in good shape. I look decent, have enough experience with girls, and my vocabulary is much better than that of my peers. For the past two years, I have noticed that I think and realize things way beyond my age. Many people say this about themselves, but looking at it from my perspective, I feel like I am more mature. Now I can easily stand up for myself because I do martial arts, which made me more confident in life, and I am making good progress at the gym too. I ran into some health issues recently, but I think they will be resolved within six months, so for now, I had to prioritize one thing.
Here is my main problem: unfortunately, I am doing poorly in school, and my knowledge of Russian, algebra, and other subjects is basically at zero. However, many successful people around my father say that a university degree is important because it connects you with a different class of society. Is this really true? Starting next year, I plan to work with tutors, with a budget of about 300,000 rubles (roughly 3,000 USD) spread over three years until graduation.
I want to open my own business in the future, whether it is a car repair shop or a nail salon, and I am aware of the risks and the time commitment involved. To be honest, I would be ready to study with AI tools right now, but I burn out very quickly. After just 3 or 4 days, I lose the drive to study on my own because I do not see immediate results. Working with a traditional tutor feels easier because when you see good reviews, you know they will actually teach you.