**TLDR: I went down a history rabbit hole and now I need someone to convince me history isn't just an endless list of atrocities.**
I am very curious and have a tendency, sometimes a bad one, to go down rabbit holes. The internet has plenty.
Here is how it went:
Politics has been constant hell in France lately. The madness is awe-inspiring, so much so that everyday conversations, no matter the age or group, somehow end up being about politics: how unfair the system is, how terrible the president or the police are, the circumstances around the recent terrorist attack, how some other countries like Japan & US are reacting to the riots and using them to further their own (fascist) political agendas despite not even understanding what the riots are about, etc.
It's just too much. So during my lunch break I thought, ok, let me read about something completely disconnected from France.
For some reason I became curious about the US Constitution and why it's considered such an important document.
So I wondered how long it was,
→ then who wrote it and why
→ then what "due process" actually meant
→ then whether there were actual cases where due process wasn't respected
→ then I realized the Constitution isn't really a rulebook, but more like **a rule that defines the rules**, and courts have to interpret what those rules mean in actual situations etc.
→ so then I wondered where those interpretations are actually written down and how some random judge 100 years later is supposed to know about them
→ somehow that led me to the Fourth Geneva Convention
→ which made me wonder what the fuck happened for so many countries to collectively decide "okay, we REALLY need rules about how civilians can be treated during war"
And here. **Here I started to find doom.**
How can human beings be so cruel? So evil? How is this possible? How can one human being treat another human being this way?
I was born in 2001. Reading history sometimes makes me feel like I'm reading something that isn't real. It's just too much. Not to say atrocities don't exist anymore, obviously, but as someone who has never witnessed atrocities on anything close to that scale, it's genuinely difficult to comprehend.
How do you even process the Holocaust? The Nanjing Massacre? And how the hell do you process Unit 731?
"An estimated 14,000 people were killed by [human experimentation](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_subject_research) in the facility itself.[^(\[8\])](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unit_731#cite_note-The_day_the_earth_died-8) Its activities included infecting prisoners with deadly diseases, conducting [vivisection](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vivisection), performing [organ harvesting](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Organ_harvesting), testing [hypobaric chambers](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypobaric_chamber), amputating limbs, and exposing victims to chemical agents and explosives. Prisoners—often referred to as "logs" (or "maruta") by the staff—were mainly [Chinese](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Han_Chinese) civilians, but also included [Russians](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Russians), [Koreans](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Koreans), and others, including children and pregnant women. No documented survivors are currently known." [Unit 731 - Wikipedia](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unit_731)
And then you learn that people involved in Unit 731 received immunity from prosecution from the US in exchange for information from their research.
I know I'm probably just emotionally shocked by what I've been reading for the past hour, but is there anything that helped you stop seeing history as **mostly just a gigantic list of atrocities?**