Sometimes I don’t trust myself to drive or be in public due to how frequently I intensely “check out” from reality.

Secondary question: are legitimate out of body experiences, where you genuinely see yourself in third person, something that happens? It’s the stereotypical description of dissociation, however it sounds far more similar to some kind of odd hallucination? I mean no disrespect by this question.

Warning for drug use and vomit mention

So for some context, I'm in my early 20s and I recently started smoking THC-A. I got diagnosed with DPDR (I believe specifically Depersonalization is what I've been dealing with) about a year ago and have been on Lexapro to deal with it. Over the past year it's gotten alot better up until about a week ago when after smoking for the fifth time overall, and this time it was about 2 days after I had done it last which is the shortest gap I've done. I ended up coughing bad enough to vomit and seconds after that happened I've entered a really bad dissociative state. I realized in the moment that I felt it the most I have in a good few months and I spent that night trying to sleep it off but it's been about 5 days and I am still struggling really hard with it. I moved up an appointment with my psychiatrist to see if there is anything I can do to help with it but for now I think I just need some advice from people who may have encountered similar problems. Thank you guys so much in advance and I apologize if this post is somewhat wordy

Do you experience dpdr anymore? Or are you completely healed?

Especially for people who dealt with chronic dpdr, do you sometimes go into it again?

Another thing I wanted to know is how you recovered. Was it a gradual recovery or was it a moment where you realized it's gone?

im 16 and this has just started. this idea of “nothing is real and everyone around me isnt real either” is really freaking me out and it only started about 2 weeks ago. i feel so hopeless and im scared im going into psychosis. i want to be able to talk to my family (especially since my mom just had a baby) and friends and know that they’re real and i feel like im wasting my life away already.

I don’t even know what to say anymore. It’s been almost two years now until I fell into a dpdr pit due to a bad reaction I had to a medication. I look at old pictures of myself and cry because I can’t feel human anymore. I stopped expecting to be normal again because it probably won’t happen. I always fail my attempts and make things worse, while my whole family denies what took place and revert to trying to live normally again. I just want my life back I want to feel like a human being again

My whole body is completely hollow not in a metaphorical way, I don’t feel any weight, thoughts, not even my breathing. It’s like my whole body mind and being is weightless and doesn’t have any electrical signals and substance inside. I don’t feel food in my mouth my teeth feel like they are completely hollow without anything inside of them. The same goes for every other consciousness aspect. My whole head and body feel like they are made out of air and I never imagined that something like this is possible. It’s like my body is only visible inside my vision but there isn’t anything inside of it happening. It’s so hollow and numb that it’s physically hurting and I can’t even move or sit anymore. Can someone tell me every possible reason why this happens, it’s like progressively getting worse.
I just want to watch TV or not think about it but even my vision is hollow when I look to bright light nothing happens like people can walk thru me and there isn’t anything happen inside of me.
Even tho when it’s cold and I’m shaking I don’t feel it and my muscles and muscle concentration can’t be felt anymore. I can’t even workout because of this. I mean if only my body would be hollow and my mind still felt normal I would kinda cope. But why does everything is this hollow feeling even my mind and my thoughts and my eyes. Like everything…
Is this something medical or DPDR? Even tho my heart is racing I don’t feel it or it doesn’t bother me. I never was like this before? I’m trying to ignore it but it doesn’t work I don’t even feel my back or hands while sitting and being on the PC. And when I take deep breaths k don’t even feel the sensation or air entering my lungs. Even tho when I lay down and want to sleep nothing is felt internally it’s like I’m only seeing the world but I can’t create any sensation in the brain or body anymore. It feels like my sensations of the body and mine fainted to the maximum amount that is possible like I’m alive with 0 sensations of being inside a body.
I’m really scared this is some medical issue or something is seriously wrong
Also extreme loud Bass can’t be felt in my ears anymore I was in the car and they out extremely loud music but it wasn’t reaching my inner brain and ears? It’s like the general conxiousness experienced got fainted completely like zoomed out and now I’m like this.

Did someone had something similar?

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I have dpdr and visual snow and went to the the eye doctors today they said I have mgd dry eyes man 5 days my eyes have been super dried they hurt so bad ughh anyone else got dry eyes ik that’s different type of thing I don’t think it’s related to dpdr but man this shit is miserable

Everytime i sit still or stand still and try to relax, I dissociate. My peripheral vision makes limbs look like they're part of the environment and I feel like things are flowing. I get so anxious I start to feel mental pain. It's been 15 months after drug induced psychosis and I still can't feel safe in my body

ever since i was little i’ve always been super distracted and impulsive, and in recent times discovered i’ve always had adhd. around 6 years ago i got Depersonalization/derealization thru smoking weed(panic attack) so for years i’ve been trying to get lean bc in my dissociated mind, the way ill feel safe is if i feel sexy asf in my body yk what i’m sayin, but every single thing i try to do(fasting, count calories, just do steps, restrict, don’t restrict) every single method possible that i’ve tried makes my brain SUPER OBSESS over what i should do and my gut goes into survival mode and i can never do anything, even back then i would try and get some momentum but i would just end up bingeing, but nowadays im just burnt out i don’t even get a day far, so then im like alright fuck it drop all the tryna lose weight shi, and wtv, but then my mind feels super bland, dissociated 24/7, racing thoughts and i just feel like shi abt myself, and my mind seems to get excited every time i find a new “method” bc then ik ill finally feel good in my body and heal dpdr. sounds dumb looking for the outside, but this is what my brain has been stuck on for the past couple years. i already how it works, id basically have to be in a deficit and go to the gym, i already have muscle, all i wanted was to get lean, but then when i drop these goals i only seem to suffer more and eat more too, its like i can’t win on either side so if anybody got any actual good tips for me that would be helpful.